6.30

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❝Work without love is slavery.❞

mother theresa

6/30/18. Okay day.

6.29

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❝We are saved by faith alone, but the faith that saves is never alone.❞

martin luther

6/29/18. Okay day.

6.28

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CMYK 44 0 40 0

❝The Simple Path 

Silence is Prayer 

Prayer is Faith 

Faith is Love 

Love is Service 

The Fruit of Service is Peaces.❞

Mother theresa

6/28/18. Okay day.

6.27

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CMYK 35 0 33 0

❝To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don't grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float.❞

Alan w. watts

6/27/18. Okay day.

6.26

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CMYK 32 0 42 0

❝There comes a time in your life when you have to choose to turn the page, write another book or simply close it.❞

shannon l. alder

6/26/18. Okay day.

6.25

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CMYK 35 0 33 0

❝Love meant jumping off a cliff and trusting that a certain person would be there to catch you at the bottom.❞

Jodi picoult
second glance

6/25/18. Okay day.

6.24

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RGB 169 238 138
HEX/HTML A9EE8A

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❝Some things have to be believed to be seen.❞

Madeleine L'Engle

6/24/18. Okay day.

6.23

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RGB 213 244 225
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❝Faith is about doing. You are how you act, not just how you believe.❞

mitch albom
have a little faith: a true story

6/23/18. Okay day.

6.22

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CMYK 37 0 31 0

❝Be Brave and Take Risks: You need to have faith in yourself. Be brave and take risks. You don't have to have it all figured out to move forward.❞

Roy t. bennett
the light in the heart

6/22/18. Okay day.

6.21

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❝I know now, Lord, why you utter no answer. You are yourself the answer. Before your face questions die away. What other answer would suffice?❞

C.S. Lewis

6/21/18. Okay day.

6.20

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CMYK 0 0 20 0 / 0 37 0

❝The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.❞

SØREN KIERKEGAARD

6/20/18. Okay day.

6.19

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RGB 174 228 181
HEX/HTML AEE4B5

CMYK 32 0 35 0

❝I talk to God but the sky is empty.❞

SØREN KIERKEGAARD

6/19/18. Okay day.

6.18

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CMYK 48 0 45 0

❝None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have Faith.❞

Paulo Ceolho
Brida

6/18/18. Okay day.

6.17

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CMYK 0 0 16 0 / 0 23 0

❝All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.❞

Ralph waldo emerson

6/17/18. Okay day.

6.16

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CMYK 19 0 39 0

❝Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere. We can't always understand them, but we have to trust in them. I know you want to question everything, but sometimes it pays to just have a little faith.❞

Lauren kate
torment

6/16/18. Okay day.

6.15

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CMYK 31 0 39 0

❝The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.❞

Søren Kierkegaard

6/9/18. Okay day.

6.14

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CMYK 28 0 45 0

❝Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.❞

Corrie ten boom

6/14/18. Okay day.

6.13

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❝And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.❞

anonymous
holy bible: king james version

6/13/18. Okay day. Grandma's (Dad's side) birthday today!

6.12

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CMYK 26 0 40 0

❝I have great faith in fools - self-confidence my friends will call it.❞

Edgar allan poe
Marginalia

6/12/18. Okay day.

6.11

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CMYK 27 0 48 0

❝Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.❞

J.r.r. Tolkien
The fellowship of the ring

6/11/18. Okay day.

6.10

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CMYK 23 0 10 0

❝“I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?”❞

John lennon

6/10/18. Pretty good day.

6.9

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❝Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.❞

DR. SEUSS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

6/9/18. My 15th Birthday!

Today was quite a good day. I lost my left lens in the morning. But mom forgave me because she wouldn't get mad at me. Anyways, I ate seaweed soup (traditional birthday meal). After that, we went to the Spectrum to shop and eat. We ate at the Cheesecake Factory which I ate an avocado toast. Then, we went to shop for my shorts. I don't know why I was acting up again but it was because mom wouldn't approve of anything I wanted to wear. I heard a little girl hold up a slightly exposing shirt and showed it to her mom and said "Daddy would kill me". It made me so sad that even her dad (or parents) wouldn't let her wear the clothes that she wanted (kind of reminded me of me too). But still I got the shirt that I wanted. It was kind of hard for me because I saw the look on mom's face and it looked like she was disappointed. But the thing is, it wasn't something that would show so much of my chest or body. It was something "normal" that girls would wear at my school, everyday. I bet that their parents wouldn't even care. But why do my parents care? Maybe it's their Asian upbringing and culture. I can't wait for college so I can actually shop for my own clothes without having to waste time thinking "What will Dad/Mom think of it?". Anyways, I got some really expensive shorts (for running). I might sound a bit selfish right now though. It was a pretty good day despite the thing with mom and me. My grades are all at an A or an A-, but science is still at a B+. I really hope I end up with all A's (range) this semester. I want summer break to be a replenishing break for me. I have so many goals ahead of me and I want to complete all of those with 104 days.

6.8

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❝Don’t waste your time in anger, regrets, worries, and grudges. Life is too short to be unhappy.❞

Roy t. bennett

6/8/18. Today was the LAST day of school! I wasn't too elated or too unhappy for it. It was just another "regular" school day that ended much quicker. I took my math final which I thought I did well on but it turned out to be the opposite. My Math grade didn't plummet too much though. Anyways, after school, my friends and I went to go eat lunch. Of course, it was the end of school and there were so many people at the same place my friend and I were supposed to meet at. Anyways, I saw a couple of my friends that sit with me at lunch. (The "only" friends I actually have). It sucks when there are so many people you know, but you can't make out the words and say "hi". Of course, my mind started doing that thing where I would self deprecate again and again and again. I don't really know if this (pantone) color fits the day. It was more of a bittersweet day for me. (It's funny to me how the quote is contradicting how I felt today). I feel like I'm getting depressed. I feel so, so, so hollow and empty and I feel like I'm getting even more fake to my friends. I'm so worried that I might lose them because I'm not acting "normal".

During summer break, I hope my emotions heal and I begin to think more positively. I know that I quit music in order to take video production, but now this other part of me is saying that I'll regret that decision.  I felt that playing my instrument was an outlet to stop thinking about what I was worrying about. Especially because I played the horn for so long and I love it so much. It feels like I'm losing a part of me, but at the same time I thought it was the right decision at the time. I need to make a life plan. Now I feel terrible writing this.

May tomorrow be a way better day.
It's my birthday tomorrow too.

6.7

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❝A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.❞

CHARLES DARWIN
THE LIFE & LETTERS OF CHARLES DARWIN

6/7/18. Today was a better day. I had my English final exam which went by quickly. I really, really hope I do well on it. Again, usual, I slept late studying for the test. Luckily, my History and English grade both rose to an A-! I couldn't believe it. But now, I have to pray that I'll do well on my Science test which my grade hasn't come out yet. May tomorrow be a better day.

6.6

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❝A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.❞

Charles darwin
the life & letters of Charles Darwin

6/6/18. Today was an okay day. Again, I fell asleep super late last night (today morning). I'm kind of disappointed in myself that I procrastinate too much but I hope I do well on something for once. I need to do well on my English final. That is just the one final that I am most concerned about. But look what I'm doing right now. Wasting yet another day on this stupid blog. I hope I do really well on this final. May tomorrow be a better day.

6.5

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❝You can have it all. Just not all at once.❞

Oprah Winfrey

6/5/18. Today was a better day. I had my english performance which went better than expected. But then at the same time I hate myself for having such bad grades. All of them have been going down. I hope I do better since I only have a week left of school.

6.4

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❝Knowing too much of your future is never a good thing.❞

Rick riordan
the lightening thief

6/4/18. Today was an okay day. I had my history debate which went by super quickly. I forgot what I say instantly after I gave my closing statement. I kind of stuttered, but not too much, I hope so. Then I had my science final which I kind of failed (75%). I hate the science department at my school. My teacher was also trying to rush everything during the test. Anyways I forgot about that too cause, well, colleges don't look at your transcripts from freshman year right..? I hope so. I want to do better next year. I promise myself I will not get another B on the report card. Anyways, after I ate dinner, I went out for a run with my friend and ran about 3-4 miles. I'm reading this book called It's Kind of a Funny Story, and the main character, Craig, deals with something I recently felt. Well, he's clinically depressed, but I love that book so much because I can actually related to someone, at least, a fictional character. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

6.3

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❝Instead of worrying about what you cannot control, shift your energy to what you can create.❞

Roy t. bennett
The Light in the heart

6/3/18. Today was a bittersweet day. I studied for my science final for more than six hours now, but I'm still stuck on every single unit. Ugh, I wish I got an A for putting in effort. God, I really hope I get an A on this. I have the history debate too, tomorrow. It really sucks because I wanted the last week of school to just be relaxed. But then again, we have finals all crammed like mine are. I hope I do well, please... Anyways at like six in the evening I went outside to meet with two of my friends. Actually, one of them I met today for the first time. She was super talkative, too much for my liking. I was just dazed and was super lost because I had so much on my mind when she was talking (rambling). I was super overwhelmed of how fast she talked. Anyways the friend I was already friends with came to join the table after like fifteen minutes. We ate and talked. I was kind of stressed out by how happy they were because I was having so much on my mind, meanwhile they seemed to be having the time of their lives. Anyways I came back home being super anxious. I didn't feel good but Mom knew that something was wrong. She tried talking to me, but I was already so fed up with finals and exams and what happened at the meeting with the two friends. It took me more than ten minutes to open up until she finally convinced me to spill something out. She talked me out some stuff, but at the time I was still feeling anxious. But as always, she actually cared for me, and I could feel that. I felt so guilty for being so selfish and rude to her for the past three years (ever since I started acting like a brat to her). I felt like I needed to be a better daughter. I promise myself I will never talk back to her. I feel so sorry for Mom. She had to put up with all my crap but still she didn't let all my rude comments break our relationship. I regret every single thing that disappointed her. But I will make it up to her. May tomorrow be a much better day.

6.2

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❝Instructions for living a life. 

Pay attention. 

Be astonished. 

Tell about it.❞

MARy oliver

6/2/18. Today was an okay day. I slept late again without doing much.

6.1

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❝In a dark place we find ourselves, and a little more knowledge lights our way.❞

Yoda

6/1/18. Today was a good day. I realized that I have a lot of work ahead of me, especially because finals are in the last week of school. I can't believe that it's already the end of my first year of high school. I had my last band concert. It was a memorable experience because I knew I had to try my best once more. I need to start my work soon. May tomorrow be a better day.